I am back in Makati! (AGAIN!)

I think it's about time I break my silence...

Hi there! We are already in the third month of 2021 and this is my very first post for this year. How have you been? Things have been pretty hectic in my 'real world', I'm not gonna lie. But here I am, still trying to take a step back from that world and into my own tiny little corner here in the blogosphere.  

I have so much to say and so much to show, but I am also at that 'overwhelmed state' at the moment. What normally happens when I get overwhelmed is that, I'll feel paralyzed and I'll procrastinate for as long as I wish. I also know that that's not right. So, to start off, I'd like you to know that I am back in my favorite city!!! I moved out of my dorm here in Makati last July 2020, while Manila was still under GCQ (General Community Quarantine). I tried to work remotely for about 5 months since and it was the worst thing that ever happened to me last year. I don't want to go into details anymore, but, I can clearly say that it's NOT for me. I actually made a post about that sometime in November. If you'd like to read that post, please feel free to click here. Though my rants on that post were technically just the tip of the iceberg. 

Anyway, I am finally back in my dorm. If you're new to my blog, I just want to let you know that I have been living in dormitories for the last decade. I don't have my own 'home' and though I have been working for about a decade now, I still can't afford my own place - or rather I still don't want to invest in my own place. I am totally fine renting a tiny space in a room shared with strangers. As a minimalist rookie, I've been trying my best to only spend on food, shelter and other basic human needs (plus my beloved art supplies!). I honestly think that not having a huge space would subconsciously trick your brain into buying less crap that you don't actually need. In my first few years of living in dorms, I have to admit, I still had a lot of useless crap tucked in my designated cabinets or drawers. But as years roll by, I am gradually learning the art of letting go and having less. Now that I don't have a lot of stuff, I don't have a lot of things to organize. The time that I used to spend organizing and stressing about my useless stuff are now used for making art for myself and for a few clients. I also spend a lot of time taking a rest and having tea, reading or learning something from the Internet, getting to know people on Instagram and YouTube and collaborating with them - basically anything that helps me grow as a human. And I missed this life SO bad! 

My soul was unbelievably crushed when I stopped doing those things while I was working remotely. If you've been reading my blog for quite some time, you would know that I have OCD. And though I am trying my best to lay low on that and tone it down a few notches, there are just times when I'd get seriously triggered. When that happens, I normally do WHATEVER it takes to get out of the shitty situation that is tormenting my soul. After 5 months of trying to make my peace with the 'new normal', I snapped. 

I just couldn't concentrate at my job when there's way too much unnecessary noise AND crap around me. It will never work UNLESS I get my own sound-proof, minimalist home office. I'm getting emotionally triggered again as I type those words, so, I've got to steer clear of that for now. Or, maybe you can just watch the first vlog that I made for 2021 so you can understand why I keep coming back to this city, no matter where and how far I go. 


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